Verbal/Emotional Abuse

Portland, Maine, beach stone

I have been verbally abused.

I have shared this with friends and several of them asked me to share some of the words that were said to me. I wondered why they needed the words. Validation?

I always hesitated in my response, I didn’t really want to bring these words back. I removed them out of my soul for a reason.

Why say them anyway? If I were to speak the words they would be delivered with my healed energy. The receiver wouldn’t feel the energy in which they were delivered to me. My calmer energy would have muted their power because I spent a lot of time facing and softening those words so I was able to put them aside.

The fallout of hearing the words when they were thrown at me attacked not only my ears, but my heart and soul. This turned verbal abuse into emotional abuse. How do I explain all of those emotions? I healed them and didn't want to bring them back, either. 

Emotional abuse attacks the nooks and crannies of one's soul. Only the receiver can truly feel the power of the abuse, because they are the target and the abuser knows where to aim. Others have to believe them, whether or not they can fully grasp it themselves. They need to be aware that the view from outside the red bullseye is far different than the view from the inside.

What do I need when I tell someone I’ve been verbally and emotionally abused? A believer, their support and love.

This is my truth,

Carol